the fat girl goes to college

sorry sorry sorry everyone for my unexpected hiatus. its just that adjusting to classes, college life and all that jazz has been kind of a lot to handle.

well, don't know if i have officially announced this yet, but i have finally moved into my dorm! in fact, next week will mark the second week of my college residence. so far, i'm in love.

well...not in that way. yet.

although, there is this one guy...i really like him, and i think i have a chance, but i'm not sure how he feels yet. we had the talk about what kind of girl/guy we like, favorite foods, where we're from, majors...all that good stuff. i don't know; i think he may be flirting a little, but i could also be totally over-reading his signals. time will tell.

and, with this new guy thing that i haven't experienced in, oh, i don't know, TWO YEARS (!) has left me conflicted. in my mind, i thought that i would have wanted to see him (my him) by now, but...strangely, no. not yet. some days are bad; i miss him more than anything, and i can't seem to think of anything else. some days are okay; i don't think of him at all, or i'm at least not all torn up about it. i don't know. hopefully i can get him up here this november...
i haven't totally lost the faith though: he still calls/texts weekly. soooo...good, right?

well, i have to go. still have reading to do, doncha know.

and speaking of doncha know, did y'all see the debate tonight?

Labels: college, debate, guys, him, relationship

well. first week of college. huh.

unfortunately, i'm already having roommate drama: its breakup and makeup time with my friend and mr. boring. evidently, they broke up (again) because mr. boring wouldn't commit...or something. you know, this is the stuff that gives teenage/young adult romances a bad name. i mean, everyone has their relationship drama (myself included), but this grade school immaturity thing has to stop. seriously. she's now telling everyone how she wants to get back with him, how she misses him, but she doesn't miss him, that she's so sad he deleted her from facebook, but he's so stubborn. i've tried my best: i told her that if she wants to stay friends, she should tell him so. no, she says; he's too...

too what, i asked?

just stubborn, she says.

i just don't understand girls sometimes, myself included. for example, i'm really really really really really missing him (my him) a lot. i mean, it seemed a few weeks ago that i was doing fine. i was looking forward to school and friends and learning and new guys and everything else that comes with college. now, it seems as if i can't even go a single hour without thinking of him once.

and that really sucks.

Labels: drama, relationship

hey y'all. sorry about the delay in posting, but i've been really busy with moving into my dorm. i moved on friday, and i'm really loving the campus.

i have nothing to report right now since dorm drama hasn't really started yet. the only thing i can think to tell you is that...i'm not over him. even though i thought i was, i'm not. it'll take one hell of a guy to make me forget him.

oh, and i listened to more jonny mcgovern.

Labels: college, jonny mcgovern, relationship

so, today was basically a kick-back day where i did absolutely nothing. i talked to my future roommate yesterday, the one who broke up with her boyfriend since he bored her. they're back together now, if its of any importance to you guys. i guess he wasn't that boring, but i digress.

like i said before, i did nothing of any note beside order delivery chinese, watch a little noggin (its educational, dammit) and listen to more jonny mcgovern antics. i'm moving to my dorm next friday, but i've still been putting off packing/cleaning up. i don't know why that is; maybe i'm still a little anxious subconciously. whateve.

other than the aforementioned articles, i have nothing to report. oh, i would like to give a quick shoutout to all my LINKREFERRAL BUDDIES!!! you guys are great...thanks for the awesome reviews and pointers. i forgot who said what, but one person said to scale down the font size. i will totally do that...i noticed just how big it is on the actual blog itself. i was just to lazy to change the default font.

oh, and the reason i don't post every day is that my life is not that exciting or eventful, right now anyways. i promise you that the stories will get better in the next two weeks.

if you feel like crying, watch the video below. one of my favorite songs from the moment i heard it.

Labels: college, ernie, jonny mcgovern, linkreferral, random, relationship, sesame street

a few weeks ago, one of my good friends met a guy whom she fell for, and he became her first boyfriend. a couple days ago, she changed her facebook status from "in a relationship" to "single". so, like any good girlfriend, i fished my brass knuckles out of my underwear drawer and prepared to annihilate the guy who had broken her heart. however, i had jumped the gun.

upon hearing the news, i called her at once to find out exactly what had happened. she picked up, and seemed quite chipper; not at all heartbroken. here is a rough transcript of our conversation:

Fat Girl: omg, what happened? are you alright?
my friend: oh yeah; i'm fine.
FG: so...what happened between you and [bleep]?
mf: well, i dumped him.
FG: hmmm. do i need to come up there and break my size 10 off in his ass?
mf: (laughs) oh no. don't worry; he didn't do anything. in fact, that's sort of the problem.
FG: i...don't understand.
mf: well, he never wanted to party or hang out or anything. he just wanted to stay in his dorm and talk. he was boring.
FG: oh well (laughs), i guess. so what did you tell him?
mf: mmm, nothing really. just that he was boring and i wanted to break up.
FG: oh...oh my.

well, you get the idea. basically, she dropped him like a hot potato because he bored her to death after approximately three weeks. now, to me, the first couple of weeks into a relationship aren't as exciting as, let's say, the first two. i guess that's because the honeymoon phase is starting to wear off. however, that's when the most intimate time starts. you guys start knowing little details about each other that no one else does. but i guess that could be perceived as the most boring time too. it all depends on perspective.

all i know is that there two guys that i met at my college orientation that i can't wait to get to know better. but that's for another post.

anyways, i'd like you guys to know about my new, totally awesome feedback email for the site. so, if you have any questions, comments, constructive criticism (and i stress constructive), post suggestions, or anything else cool you want to let me know about or something you want posted on the site, please send it to thefatgirl@rocketmail.com. don't worry: i'll post the email in the header of the site so you'll never lose it.

also, there's a poll in my sidebar regarding adsense. please vote in it! i really need my readers' opinions.

editor's note: i removed the poll on 9/12/08. however, the results indicated that most of you would not be offended by adsense on the page. thanks for your votes!

Labels: adsense, college, email, poll, relationship, thefatgirl{at}rocketmail.com

my better half left for school today. part of me is slightly jealous that i still have to wait a month to leave; part of me mourns him leaving; part of me is happy that he'll get a chance to grow. however, the whole of me has reconciled with the fact that i won't be able to see him as often as i'm used to. i heard one of my favorite songs that complements my feelings. if you know it, feel free to sing along. if you don't, the words are right below.

billy joel - this is the time

We walked on the beach beside that old hotel
They're tearing it down now
But it's just as well
I haven't shown you everything a man can do
So stay with me baby
I got plans for you

This is the time to remember
'Cause it will not last forever
These are the days
To hold on to
'Cause we won't
Although we'll want to
This is the time
But time is gonna change
You've given me the best of you
And now I need the rest of you

Did you know that before you came into my life
Some kind of miracle that I survived
Some day we will both look back
And have to laugh
We lived through a lifetime
And the aftermath

This is the time to remember
'Cause it will not last forever
These are the days
To hold on to
'Cause we won't
Although we'll want to
This is the time
But time is gonna change
I know we've gotta move somehow
But I don't want to lose you now

Sometimes it's so easy
To let a day
Slip on by
Without even seeing each other at all
But this is the time you'll turn back to and so will I
And those will be days you can never recall

And so we embrace again
Behind the dunes
This beach is so cold
On winter afternoons
Ah, but holding you close is like holding the summer sun
I'm warm from the memory of days to come

This is the time to remember
'Cause it will not last forever
These are the days
To hold on to
'Cause we won't
Although we'll want to
This is the time
But time is gonna change
You've given me the best of you
But now I need the rest of you...

for g.: farewell love, and remember that someone out there will always love you.

Labels: college, high school, him, relationship

in all of the you're-going-to-college-now-what? advice books that i've been reading, a main point is that it's best to be romantically unattached when entering your postsecondary education. this means that if you do/did have a significant other in high school, its best to break it off.

i know that this is what's best, but its been so hard to actually come to the conclusion that i need to do this. i've been with the same guy for about two years now (which is an extremely long time in high school) and its safe to say that i've fell firmly in love with him. sure, we have our momentary moments of anger with one another, disagreements on politics or current affairs or just about anything else one could think of, but we always seem to patch things up. no, i don't know if he is "the one" or just someone i really clicked with, but a lot of...firsts have been with him. i don't think i need to clarify that one...

i want to move one and find other people, and i want him to do the same. in the long run, we both want completely different lifestyles, and i'd doubt it would work very well. but...he has tried bringing up the prospects of marriage. no, i'm not kidding; he really has. as fairytale-ish and wonderful as it would sound on paper, i don't know if we'd be a good married couple. who knows though? who really knows how it will all turn out but the Maker Himself? i sure don't. what i do know is that i would be a very happy camper if the universe decided to bring him back to me, but for now, i must let him go.

i am reminded of a very wise quote. sorry, i don't know who said it though.

if you love something, let it go. if you are meant to have it, it will come back to you.

deep, huh?

Labels: college, growth, high school, love, relationship, sweetheart

my parents have had marital problems since i can remember, and i have had problems with my mother since i found the courage to speak out against her random outbreaks of rage. so, it didn't really bother me that much when she tried to antagonize me this afternoon. to be honest, i can't point out exactly what i said that offended her so, but offend her i did; and boy, did i hear about it. 

Labels: african-american, anger, dallas, don imus, mother, race, relationship

i know i have said this before, but i can't imagine how hard it will be to leave him behind. i can barely go a week with out seeing him, i don't know how i'll go on being five hours away from him, with plenty of other girls just surrounding him...i really thought i could handle it, but i'm now thinking that i can't. 

Labels: growth, loneliness, love, relationship

i almost let him go completely. at his party, i did let him go momentarily. however, in the bigger picture of things, i had let him go completely. i started doing things that made me happy again. i started visiting friends more, i shopped, bonded with my parents and started looking forward to the upcoming fall quarter. for the most part, i had completely filled the hole he left in me. 

Labels: forget, him, love, relationship, vacation

i attended my high school sweetheart's graduation party today, and stayed for approximately fifteen minutes, by choice. why, you ask? i saw in explicit detail for the first time that we came from completely separate worlds. 

Labels: boyfriend, graduation, headache, high school, party, relationship, sweetheart