Thursday, June 19, 2008
life goes on
hmm. i wish life would go faster than it is. as of now, i am waiting at home for my life to begin essentially. not diet life, the cloistered, sheltered kind that your parents feed you for the sake of your "feelings" or "sanity" or whatever. i want it, but do i want it? there's so many questions i have about the upcoming months that i'm going insane.
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the sad thing is, some of these questions aren't just regarding myself, but a lot of the people i know as well. what will become of them? will they keep in contact with me? will they get girlfriends and boyfriends, get married, get pregnant, drop out? will they change? will they remember me?
fortunately, i do have a close friend that i will room with. however, that doesn't account for the rest of the people i know. will i find a boyfriend, or any guy i'm attracted to? will i find someone who's attracted to me? i have no idea.
there's one thing i do know for sure: there is no potential for true growth in the place i am mentally, physically, emotionally, or spiritually. especially spiritually. for the first time in a long time (i know this will sound really bad), i had the real desire to be close to God, to go to church, to read the Bible. i don't think i'm going to be one of those people who "finds" themselves in college, but one who will be able to fully express themselves without expression.
i just hope the food is good.
Labels: college, food, friends, growth, questions, summer
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